What do I have to do to actually lose weight?

Frustrated.

Beyond words.

Annoyed.

What am I doing wrong?

I have been working out for somewhere between 8-11 hours a week for about 6 weeks now, and was working out and eating well before I joined the gym, and I haven't lost ANY weight.

That's not *entirely* true...I lost my baby weight...all 5 pounds I put on during my pregnancy with Keane.  I am down from my heaviest weight, which was both pre and post Teague's pregnancy. (I gained nothing with Teague, and I lost nothing either.  I haven't figured out how I can have an 8 pound baby and not at least weight 8 pounds less...) Most of this weight I actually lost while I was attempting to breastfed Teague, and failing at that. 

I can lose weight if I eat less than 1000 calories a day, but that is really unsustainable long term for me. Others have told me to eat more...I tried that, I may not gain weight, but I am definitely NOT losing weight. 

I am losing inches and sizes in clothing, but I WANT to lose pounds. 

I WANT to weigh less than David for once in my life.

I WANT to be out of the fat category when I go to the doctor.

Speaking of which, I am going to the doctor on the 18th.  I am hoping that this doctor (nurse practitioner actually) listens to me and doesn't blow me off and write on my medical forms that and I quote "am just lazy and obese."

I was going to post a picture of my weight, but I am afraid of the number still.  I am not as bold as my friend Leah.  Major props to her for putting it all out there!!!! Maybe one day...

Any suggestions from anyone who has gone through this journey?

I am tired of failing...